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Rituals

An American Indian said that rituals are important part of our life to walk on the earth gently. Through the rituals, we are opening up ourselves so that we can heal more effectively and easily. Spiritual part of ourselves is not visible and being aware of spirit is not easy thing in the physical world. Rituals help connect Physical being to other aspects of us which are; mind, emotion, and spirit and it assist all four aspects to unite as one. Today, I did a little ritual by burning my old journal to celebrate my new start. Important notes that I made in the journal remains in my heart forever and all the mistakes, worries, and concerns are gone into the air. In the American Indian culture, wisdom is passed from generation to generation verbally. Telling stories from adult to children, elder to adult and people to people. One of important facts of passing wisdom verbally is that story can be changed depends on listener's personality or ability but main message remains, so that an

Another day

So, another day is finishing. I just finished off one assignment for massage course. It's nice to see the little achievement. Maybe, that's what I need to do. Visualize the little steps to climb up, or untangle strings one at a time. I just need to do one by one. I am always the slow one like a turtle. I was always the one who didn't go home straight away from school, instead I walked around and discovered a lot of fun on the side of the road. It seems you are wasting time but it's not. You are just taking time as it takes. Don't worry about how you go, just enjoy the moment, one step at a time.

Three step forward and Two step back

Life is a funny thing. If I list every single thing I want to do in my life, I would be devastated to know it's impossible to fulfill everything. Knowing that, I was silly, I did, I listed it in my head and devastated. Major storm in my head. It blinds you from what you have now which constantly giving you safety and place to even think about it. I don't know why I trapped by such a obvious thing from time to time. And why I forget that it always comes and goes like a storm and it's not the end of life. Funny thing the emotion is also, sometime logical thinking doesn't explain everything. It's a slow progress to become who I want to be. Keeping peace in mind and do not panic. It may take three step forward and two step back, sometime three or four step back. But I should know I will get there where I can look back and laugh about the past. I just appreciate the every support people provide me and give warmth in my heart. Tomorrow is another day. Let's step forwa

With a little help from my friends

It's always amusing to know how different we are from each other, and at the same time those differences could attract each other or dislike each other. How one person feels, thinks, perceives, cannot be entirely same to others. We are all different, indeed. I felt so helpless when my friend told me about how she was stressed and struggling to cope her current situation. She is an admirable person, she always lifts my motivation up through my massage course and she is very clever and intelligent, knows a lot of things about what I am interested. She always show cheerful smile and seems to be full of positive energy. But, not this week. I wanted to do something for her but only I could do was to talk and listen. I wanted to save her from the darkness and uncertainty where she was wondering around. There were not so much I could do. I wished if only I could give her some comfort like she always gave me. It was strange to be happened but many students from my course including me we

Follow your heart

When I have a talk heart to heart, I feel very warm. I felt like to listen to Cat Stevens tonight to reflect another lovely day. It is good to have some time to talk with friends endlessly when I know they feel they need to talk. I used to not have enough time to do that. In fact, I was busy to do everyday stuff and think about myself. I am glad that I can be with my friend when they need me. Things are happening all the time. Happening to others and happening to me. Maybe that's is LIFE as it is, and we need to live in it. I don't know what is the meaning of life. Why we are born and dying. But if I think this way that we come from nothing, then I think we are lucky to have a life. We haven't pay for it, and no obligation to pay back for it. We are given to live in this world, so let's do as many experience as possible. Persuading happiness is good, trying out adventurous life is good too, feeling sad or facing to challenges are very hard but give you a meaningful ad

Out of blue

It didn't take too much time to recover from the sentimentalism. It's been a busy week though. Work, catching up with friends, study, then work again, study again and having visitor, and shopping. I bought a PDA and installed a medication dictionary which will help a lot at work to check medication details before administration. Without this marvelous device, I needed to go through a reference book to check each medication at work. I think the government should give it to all nurses and doctors. I try to follow what my heart is telling me, especially when I am in blue. Eat as I want, do as I like, sleep as much as I need without thinking too much about consequences of them. It helped me certainly. It's also nice to talk to someone who know me very well, and they lift my spirit up. I am going to watch my favourite DVDs this weekend and have a good rest. My massage course is getting harder and harder, so many things to learn, think, and practice. I am a little bit behind fro

Sentimental

sentimental : adjective 1 ) describes someone who is strongly influenced by emotional feelings, especially about happy memories of past events or relationships with other people, rather than by careful thought and judgment based on facts Quote:Cambridge Online dictionary Yes, I was... Well, I drove down the place where I used to go for work. It was always my favourit route to drive. There is a vast field of greens and turfs, horses are eating lawns very peacefully and silently. Birds were flying around over my car and sometimes just next to the car as if I was flying with them. A couple of Dandelion or feathers was in front of my car, floating timelessly. Happy to be there but I missed it too much. My memories from the past were coming back to me as I drove the same road on which I used to spend time to reflect myself before and after work listening the favourite radio station. It's the season to be sentimental for me too. Autumn is always the season of sentimental in my life. I gu