That's all what I needed.
I had been quite healthy for long time until recently fell in sick. I felt so weak physically and mentally. I think that what sickness can do. I was fighting with my thoughts that I shouldn't be that negative minded when I am sick. I felt quite nuisance and feeling like I was losing everything what I was building up to make myself better physically and spiritually. My friend taught me that having the negative thoughts is not always a bad thing. It is a opportunity to release some part of unconscious bit which is usually suppressed in daily life. By seeing opposite side of yourself under challenging situation, you learn more about yourself and life itself. I was saved by hearing that. Now I feel I stepped up a bit after being sick. Being weak is a process of being strong. It was just what I needed to learn.