Heart

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I don't know where to start. I've just been to new work today. I am starting new career as a massage therapist. I am so excited but it hasn't sink into myself.

It's been nearly two month since my dearest friend passed away from aggressive liver cancer on 27/7/09. We studied together hoping we both become good therapists and give comfort to many many people who need support. She became a lovely and professional aroma therapist. She was a mother. She was a woman with wisdom. She opened her big heart to everyone with big sweet smile. She never be judgmental. She always looked into my eyes and said "how are you?" and care for me. She shows me a courage and strength. She never forgot her sense of humor. She loved me to teach me how to love myself.

I miss her so much. I miss her healing smile. She didn't need to use anything to heal people but her present. She still give me a comfort everyday.


Before it's too late, if you love someone dearly, let's not wait to tell them so. Let's not hesitate to show you care.

I am lucky because we knew time was precious then. We could spend good time together in the limited period.

But still I don't know how to describe my heart.

I miss her so much and at the same time I am happy for my new start as a therapist because I know she is very happy for me too.

The strong storm outside blows my sorrow away to heal and allows me to move on.

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