That's the WAY!!

D o it how your heart tells you U nknown is the door to the courage N ever give up for what you can be C onfidence comes with experience, so A nother year of life N ever give up for what you want to be

I had been quite healthy for long time until recently fell in sick. I felt so weak physically and mentally. I think that what sickness can do. I was fighting with my thoughts that I shouldn't be that negative minded when I am sick. I felt quite nuisance and feeling like I was losing everything what I was building up to make myself better physically and spiritually. My friend taught me that having the negative thoughts is not always a bad thing. It is a opportunity to release some part of unconscious bit which is usually suppressed in daily life. By seeing opposite side of yourself under challenging situation, you learn more about yourself and life itself. I was saved by hearing that. Now I feel I stepped up a bit after being sick. Being weak is a process of being strong. It was just what I needed to learn.

When we were school kids, teachers made us recite some famous poems. One of those poems which still remain in my mind is " Ame ni mo makezu " by Kenji Miyazawa. I remember the poem especially when winter winds blow against me. I wish there is no lost in English translation as it is very simple and yet dynamic and powerful. I like this philosophical poem that I want to follow and I don't want to forget. There are several versions of translation for this poem, but I think the "Stand up to the rain" is more like the original. 「雨にもまけず」　　宮沢賢治　　　　　　　　　 雨にもまけず　風にもまけず 雪にも夏の暑さにもまけぬ　丈夫なからだをもち 慾はなく　決して瞋らず　いつもしずかにわらっている　　 一日に玄米四合と　味噌と少しの野菜をたべ　　 あらゆることを　じぶんをかんじょうに入れずに　　 よくみききし わかり　そして わすれず　　 野原の松の林の蔭の　小さな萱ぶきの小屋にいて　　 東に病氣のこどもあれば　　行って看病してやり　　 西につかれた母あれば　　行ってその稻の束を負い 南に死にそうな人あれば　行って こわがらなくてもいいといい 北にけんかや そしょうがあれば　つまらないから やめろといい ひでりのときは なみだをながし　さむさのなつは おろおろ あるき みんなに でくのぼうとよばれ　ほめられもせず　くにもされず そういうものに　わたしはなりたい

It was a first day to give massages at the student massage clinic today. 5 of us out of 21 from our massage class had debut at the clinic. We were all nervous indeed. We had to give 1 hour massage to each 3-4 clients. Check client record, and plan the treatment, give massage, evaluation, and give recommendation like instruct stretch at home etc. How excited it was to work as a therapist and also work with classmates as a team. We had to take turns to be an assistant called a runner. Runner does not give massages for the hour instead, she had to assist all other students to change linens on massage table, prepare for next clients, filing and doing paper works. I was lucky to have excellent classmates both as therapists and as team mates today. We all cheered each other, helped each other. We all are committed and enthusiastic about giving massage. It was fantastic feeling I had at the end of the clinic. I am so lucky to have such nice people studying at the same time. I learn a lot ...

You can't tell who they really are from how they look or what they do, can you? People tend to judge others by their look and attitude. It's because really easy to see by eyes or hear. It's so visible and obvious. Attitude or saying in words could reflect what people think, but how many people are really doing how they want to do or what they think they wish to do. I am interested in how people really think. What would happen if all human-beings started to act honestly for themselves. Maybe it is the different from animal and human. Human have a capacity to lie themselves or hide true thoughts and act for other's benefit. Thinking that other's benefit is your gain, which, in other word, is LOVE. Maybe that the start of the development of community. Keeping harmony is the priority within the community. In American Indian culture, they don't have any law, in fact, it is not necessary. Having a strong tie in the community, it is fearful for individuals to lose t...

I always admire them. Those people who make a lot of effort to achieve their goals. They have a lot of stories to tell of which I would never heard. I wonder if I could be like them. I wonder if I could be determined like they are. I just appreciate to have the chances to meet them in this world. Who could have imagined that I would have such a wonderful encounter. Thinking of the possibility to meet those individuals in this universe would be very very small. From the day that I was born, did anybody know that how I'm going to do? On the days that made my life turned, twisted, and jumped, would I ever know that there would be a lot more to experience out there? A wise man said "what if this world is Heaven?" Many people believe that there are another life, so you hope to do things which you can't do now in the another life. But what if this is Heaven, then we are wasting so many things, the beautiful nature, lots of people's life, all the resources, the natural...

From this week, I started to travel to the massage course by train. It takes 45 minuets and about an hour from door to door. I found it very relaxing compare to driving up the mountain via high way. I have a lot of time for reading, sleeping, looking at the mountains and bush, and meditating which I couldn't have done in the car. I always feel an interesting thing about train journey. The time and space in the train is somehow different from that of outside of train, as if I am traveling time much faster than the outside world and I become an observer who is looking through the world. The windows seem to be a multi screen displaying people who are going to school and work, or endless scenery of the magnificent nature. In return, I like to see the moving trains from outside especially at night. At the windows, I see people who may be going back to home, each individual is doing different things; looking out of windows, chatting with friends, talking on the mobile or sleeping peacefu...